Being who you are

Hey, guys, I'm backkkkkkkk!

Anyway, I'm always having trouble being who I am, not who people want me to be. I have a big family; and when I say my last name, nearly everyone in the town that I live knows the family that I am a part of. My mum says that is because we are well liked, and I believe that's true but it also puts pressure on me. My sisters are known to be good workers and they are and I feel like I should be up there with them. I am trying my hardest to be as well (I just got my first job) but it's hard to measure up to where my sisters are. I know that they have more experience but still.

I don't want to be in any of my sibling's shadow, but being the youngest of my family, that is a little be hard. Everyone knows my last name but I feel like few knows my first. It could also be because I don't really get out in town and make a name for myself. I'm trying to do that. I'm trying to show that I'm like my siblings in some ways but not every way.

Some of my siblings drink or do drugs. I won't do either of them. And I don't really want to be known as the sister of people who do that. But I can't really change my family.

I am being my own person though. I dress the way I want to, not the way my sisters want me to; trust me it's hard when you have so many girls breathing down your neck to dress differently. But I have been doing it for so long they barely bother me now, thankfully. Which is good, I don't really don't like the way they dress (no offence sisters).

I'm getting used to knowing that most people know who my family is if it is only the last name. I mean I can't change it. And I don't really want to change it. Even as annoying as my family is, I love them. I know that at least one of them will be there for me when I need them, even if it's a parent or a niece or nephew (trust me I have heaps of those).

That's all for now.
EB